Please accept my humble obeisances –
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada.
I had recently some thoughts about your Guru Maharaja HH Bhakti Caru Swami.
The thing is that back in the 80ies I was counselling one devotee who on book distribution saw a Jewellery shop being robbed and the owner being beaten right in front of his eyes.
This boy bhakti Steve (quite a big man and at the peak of his health) raced into the shop to take on the robbers.
When they some him coming at them, roaring like a lion they gunned him down with two shots into his stomach area.
Steve instantly collapsed and lost consciousness. He was immediately rushed to the hospital and his body was hooked up in the intensive care unit.
But he was unconscious – we all thought.
I visited him in the hospital and asked him, “Steve, can you hear me?”
I asked again: ”Steve, if you can hear me just move your thumb.”
The ICU doctors told me that he is unable to hear me.
A month later they took him out the ICU and when I heard that he was back to life I visited him again.
He was overjoyed to see me and so was I to see him.
When I asked him whether he knew that I was visiting before he said, yes, he did.
“But how is that”? I asked him.
He said:” Because you told me, “Steve if you can hear me please move your thumb.”
He said he heard most things that were going on in the ICU but since his body was in artificial Coma he had no control over his body.
So in the same way, there is a good chance that Maharaja actually heard what was going on but could not express himself.
I think he did – why should Krishna take him to the spiritual world without him being in full consciousness – makes no sense.
So the other day I came across a YouTube video that actually describes a very similar situation of several men who were in Coma for many years together.
I thought you might be interested to take a look at it.
It may actually give some devotees who are grieving now some relief and another way to look at Maharaj’s departure.
As for myself I am convinced Maharaja was aware what happened around him.
He was just not able to express himself.
So whatever service you gave to him in his last days on Earth in terms of bhajans, prayers, etc
I believe that there is a very good chance that he heard you, all the way to the moment of his departure.
The video is here:
Hope that helps a little bit,
Wish you all the Best and lots of Krishna Conscious –
May Sri Krishna take you home.